24 February 2008 ; 2202 hrs

Lately, i feel so sad. sumtimes my eyes full with tears.. very easily feel sad. Even though listening to some song, I nearly cry..

Today, I read my 2007 diary. I cried. Because it remind me of my late father. I wrote everything from 1st January 2007 up to 26 March 2007... I remember everything from the first day in Hospital until he passed away..

Al Fatihah For Abaji...

Dastaan e Lyrics (Om Shanti Om)

Song : Dastaan e
Film : Filem Om Shanti Om
Actor/actress: Shah Rukh Khan , Deepika





Sune walo, suno aaisa bhi hota hai
Dil deta hai jo, woh jaan bhi kotha hai
Pyaar aisa jo karta hai,kya mar ke bhi marta hai
Aao tum bhi aaj sunlo


Dastaan hai ye ke
ek tha naojawaan jo dil hi dil mein
ek haseena ka tha deewana
Woh haseena thi ke jiski khoobsoorthi
Tha duniya bar mein tha mashoor afsaana
Dono ki yeh kahani hai jisko sabhi
Kehte hai, Om shanti Om


Naojawan ki thi aarzo, uski thi yeh hi justujoo
Us haseena mein usko mile ishq ke saare rang kabool –2
Usne na jana yeh naadani hai
Woh reth ko samja ke pani hai
Kuyn aisa tha, kisliye tha,
Yeh kahani hai


Dastaan hai ye ke
Us dilkash haseena ke nigaho dil mein
koi dusra hi tha
Bey khabar iss baath se
Us naojawan ke kwabo ka anjam tho hona bura hi tha
Toote kwabon ki us dastaan ko sabhi
Kehte hai Om Shanti Om



Sune walo, suno aaisa bhi hota hai
Koi jitna hase utna hi roota hai
Deewani hoke haseena, khaye kya dhoke haseena
Aao tum bhi aaj sunlo

Dastaan hai ye ke
us masoom haseena ne jise chaaha woh
tha aandar se harjaye
Sang dil se dil lagake bewafa ke haat aake
Usne ek din mauth hi paaye
Ek sitam ka phasana hi jisko sabhi
Kehte hai Om shanti Om


Kuyn koi katil samjtha nahi,
Ke jurm koi chuptha nahi
Yeh daag woh hai jo mitha nahin
Rehta hai kooni ke haat par
Koon us haseena ka jab tha huwa

koi wahan tha pohunch to gaya
Lekin use woh bacha na saka
Roya tha pyaar uski maath par



Dastaan hai ye ke
jo pehchaan tha hai kooni ko
woh naojawan hai laut ke aaya
keh rahi hai zindagi ka dil samaj le
uske sar pe cha chuka hai maut ka saaya
janmo ki karmo ki hai kahani jise
Kehte hai Om shanti Om
kehte hai om shanti om
kehte hai om shanti om




(Al Kisah pengkhianatan cinta... )

TO Watch the video clip, go to:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ev1RTC_WN20

3 Feb 2008 - 1243 hrs

Sunday... Its was the best day in my life.. I love sunday... as I can lepak at home for the whole day... except, if my mum ask to go to wedding or my relative house.. I dont mind going... hehehhe...

Today morning, went to market.. biasala... and n0w, im waiting for my mum, as she wanted to bring me to her friend wedding.. so, masa tgh waiting nie la, online jap.. apa lagi.. download songs n movies la.. n surf friendster, my office mail, and this blog.. takde kerije..

yesterdayy, went to KL.. but, dont know y i really feel it - I hate KL.. too many people.. so crowd.. n soooo packed!!! I feel like I cant breath... so, its just my friend really wanted to go there... so, just ikut je la...

29 January 2008 - 1417 hrs

Phew... Penat hari nie.. penat pikir... hari nie board meeting.. Nak present draft audited account yang considered final. But, morning, auditor called me and saying that my cashflow salah.. Wei.. we all dah print the draft last night, n now he saying that one item in the cash flow is wrong.. mati la cam nie... the draft dah masuk file company sec dah.. lapan copy lak tu.. mmg la one line item.. but it does effect few line.. tension.. my boss lagi tension.. before this, takkan dia tak perasan benda tu salah.. then what for he became auditor... idiot..

So, I ammend my working, and email to him... so, now waiting for the new draft.. The board meeting is on 3pm sharp.. apa nie.. lagi abt 40 minutes.. I dont want to think anything now...

27 January 2007 - 2312 hrs

Hari nie, I gi shopping beli barang dapur with my mum kat giant.. mana lagi... dah tu, gi makan tosei lak.. hehehhe.. saje, my mum nak belanja makan... but, the weather today really hot.. Balik rumah, migraine.. langsung.. tension btul.. so, as today cuti, i pun kemas la apa yg patut.. biasala, before my fauja (army) team nak dtg umah, better kemas dulu.. hehehe.. as, when fauja dah dtg tak leh nak buat apa... fauja is my niece and nephews - mira, adam n amir.. weekdays they will stay at my mum's, and weekend balik rumah mereka. sekolah pun dekat depan umah i.. so, bakper nak berulang balik kan.. once a week la mereka balik.

Tadi, main dam ular dgn adam n mira.. cheh!! i kalah.. always kena makan that ular.. hehehhe... so, when adam told his father that i loss, i buat buat merajuk.. n said "khalaji taknak main lagi la".. N adam immediately change his statement, "khalaji menang".. see.. kids.. pandai nak pujuk org.. I gelak je la.. Adam is quite smart.. either in day to day life and at school.. He dont want to bother others.. He has so much of self confident. Mira is different.. She is smart too.. But, today, i got shocked in m life, as when i asked her what she want to be when she grown up, whe told me, "artist - singer".. ye la tu.. takde dalam sejarah keturunan we all jadi penyanyi.. I bukan sceptical abt all this dunia hiburan nie..but, seriously, ada penyayi pakai seksi seksi. Berjoget atas pentas la.. Bagus sangat la tu. Tayang bod kat public. Ada penyanyi dah kaya, but still nak kawin ngan org kaya sampai bertindak tidak adil dgn beberapa pihak.. apa nie.. dunia macam nie kat yg patut di ceburi?? no way... So, i talked to her slowly, "mira, suara tu aurat. Mira nak tanggung dosa ke everytime mira menyanyi.? Duit mira yg dapat dgn hasil menyanyi tu halal ke??". She a bit confuse.. n terkejut. So I explained to her, as a muslim, we shall never do things that against muslim rules. In islam, music can be haram if it mengkhayalkan.. I know, it is impossible to practice this rules nowdays.. but, if akidah kita kuat, kita boleh.. kan.. bukannya susah...

okla.. nak tidur... nearly 0000 hours already.. hehehhe.. Good nite...

25 January 2008 - Sad Memory

I hate year 2007. As that year I lost my beloved my father - due to brain tumor - stage 4. What happen on this date last year, was, I with my father - shopping, who had been discharge from Hospital - after brain surgery - to remove part of the tumor from his brain on 19 January 2007. We actually went out to Alam Central. As he need to buy new handphone. So, I accompanied him to buy new handphone. He bought Nokia 6280. After that, he wanter to buy mini TV and electric shaver. So, we went to the store to get those item.

I was remembered, he walked really slow. He never walk that slow before. I know, it definitely cause by the tumor - which effect his nerve. And, he was wearing an orrange T-Shirt and "kupiah", which is to cover his head, although we can still see the stitches. But, I dont care about other people who kept staring at us. I do not feel shame that time. I was proud walking with my father. As he is strong enough to go out in the public looking like that..

I still remember that moment.. He was so cute that time. I still cannot believe that he passed away last year.. Maybe I dont want to believe it...

25 January 2007 - until 2 pm

What on earth happening today!! heheheh.. (substitute with word *hell*.. not nice ma..)..I did submit my latest consol working and notes,together with the cash flow last tuesday.. but, today, the auditor called me and ask why my consol working not tie with cash flow.. where got.. cheh!!! apa nie.. luckily my boss answering his call.. if not, i dah jerit dah...A

nd today, ada je issue kat office nie. normally, when friday comes, two of female staff di kehendaki jaga pagar.. as our security guard go for Friday prayer. Bukanla berdiri kat pintu pagar tu.. But, dalam post guard, which is complete with air- cond and TV.. heheheh.. by the way, today is not my duty yet. But, its happen that, one of the female staff who should be jaga pagar today, went to our branch office in Penang. and her partner start to bising bising la, said that i can only jaga for 1 hour.. another hour someone has to replace that lady yg pergi penang. so, jadi la satu kekecohan di office nie hari nie. sampai ED called my boss asking who can replace that girl.. I just shocked.. ED can ask anyone to do it rite.. but, why he ask my boss - mana my boss n i tgh siapkan audited account?? she also have to think abt benda nie ke..For me, very simple. That girl yg pergi Penang tu, y not she arrange someone to replace her masa dia pergi Penang? senang nye nak lepas tgn.. I nie, tak pernah cari pasal lagi ngan bebudak kat sini. But, plz dont ask me to start.. mulut I lagi laser.. but, I prefer to sabar.. sabar la dulku. c how can i hold this kesabaran...

so, my boss minta i replace her.. mmg la i taknak memula.. sebab its not my time yet.. But, malas nak cakap banyak banyak.. but, if people start to penting kan diri, I pun nak kena penting kan diri la.. So, when my turn datang, I wont jaga la.. Either she or other have to replace me. As, i dah jaga today.. Ntah hapa hapa ntah....But, to tell the truth, no body like this kind of attitude. And the staff yg ke penang tu, no body in the office like her.. everyone hates her.. Im not saying that I hate her.. but, u know la.. mulut dok nak melaser je.. I pun boleh laser gak.. but I nie taknak la melukakan perasaan org.. WHat for.. rite...So, tu la citer sampai tgh hari tadi.. la nie, nak sambung check draft audited account lak..