..*Pocketful of Sunshines - Natasya Bedingfield*..

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Oh.

Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me.
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.
No.

Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A hiding place.

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Oh.

Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me.
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.
No.

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Oh.

Wish that you could, but you ain't gonna own me.
Do anything you can to control me.
Oh, no.

Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A hiding place.

There's a place that I go,
But nobody knows.
Where the rivers flow,
And I call it home.

And there's no more lies.
In the darkness, there's light.
And nobody cries.
There's only butterflies.

Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A hiding place.

Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A hiding place.

Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.
Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A hiding place.

The sun is on my side.
Take me for a ride.
I smile up to the sky.
I know I'll be all right.

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Shaz: love this songs too much. Its remind her of........ heheheh...
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..-* Nasihat Kehidupan *-..

1. KETIKA MENCARI CALON
Janganlah mencari isteri, tapi carilah ibu bagi anak-anak kita
Janganlah mencari suami, tapi carilah ayah bagi anak-anak kita.

2. KETIKA MELAMAR
Anda bukan sedang meminta kepada orang tua/wali si gadis,
tetapi meminta kepada Allah melalui orang tua/wali si gadis.

3. KETIKA AKAD NIKAH
Anda berdua bukan menikah di hadapan penghulu,
tetapi menikah di hadapan Allah

4. KETIKA RESEPSI PERNIKAHAN
Catat dan hitung semua tamu yang datang untuk mendoa'kan anda,
kerana anda harus berfikir untuk mengundang mereka semua dan meminta maaf apabila anda berfikir untuk BERCERAI kerana menyia-nyiakan do'a mereka.

5. KETIKA MALAM PERTAMA
Bersyukur dan bersabarlah.
Anda adalah sepasang anak manusia dan bukan sepasang malaikat.

6. SELAMA MENEMPUH HIDUP BERKELUARGA
Sedarilah bahawa jalan yang akan dilalui tidak melalui jalan bertabur bunga,
tapi juga semak belukar yang penuh onak dan duri.

7. KETIKA BIDUK RUMAH TANGGA GOYANG
Jangan saling berlepas tangan,
tapi sebaliknya justeru semakin erat berpegang tangan

8. KETIKA BELUM MEMILIKI ANAK.
Cintailah isteri atau suami anda 100%

9. KETIKA TELAH MEMILIKI ANAK.
Jangan bagi cinta anda kepada (suami) isteri dan anak anda,
tetapi cintailah isteri atau suami anda 100%
dan cintai anak-anak anda masing-masing 100%.

10.KETIKA EKONOMI KELUARGA MERUDUM
Yakinlah bahawa pintu rezeki akan terbuka lebar berbanding lurus
dengan tingkat ketaatan suami dan isteri.

11.KETIKA EKONOMI BERKEMBANG
Jangan lupa akan jasa pasangan hidup yang setia mendampingi kita semasa menderita

12.KETIKA ANDA ADALAH SUAMI
Boleh bermanja-manja kepada isteri tetapi jangan lupa untuk bangkit secara bertanggung jawab apabila isteri memerlukan pertolongan Anda.

13.KETIKA ANDA ADALAH ISTERI
Tetaplah berjalan dengan gemalai dan lemah lembut, tetapi selalu berhasil menyelesaikan
semua pekerjaan.

14.KETIKA MENDIDIK ANAK
Jangan pernah berpikir bahawa orang tua yang baik adalah orang tua yang tidak pernah marah kepada anak,kerana orang tua yang baik adalah orang tua yang jujur kepada anak ....

15.KETIKA ANAK BERMASALAH
Yakinilah bahawa tidak ada seorang anakpun yang tidak mahu bekerjasama dengan orang tua, yang ada adalah anak yang merasa tidak didengar oleh orang tuanya.

16.KETIKA ADA PIL.
Jangan diminum, cukuplah suami, isteri sebagai ubat.

17.KETIKA INGIN AMAN DAN HARMONIS

Gunakanlah formula 7 K

1 Ketaqwaan
2 Kasih sayang
3 Kesetiaan
4 Komunikasi dialogis
5 Keterbukaan
6 Kejujuran
7 Kesabaran

Diriku terbelenggu

Diri Ku Terbelenggu - Francisca Peter

Tak faham sikapmu
Kau bercinta seumpama menukar baju
Kau turutkan hati
Kata nasihat tak kau peduli

Kau tahu hatiku
Kerana kasih ku bersabar selalu
Biarpun terluka
Terus bertahan selagi terdaya

Mengapa engkau kusayangi
Mengapa kau ku nanti
Mengapa ku rela disakiti
Diriku ini terbelenggu di dalam kepuraanmu

Telah terlalu lama kuhimpun doa-doa
Semoga Tuhan memberikan hidayatNya
Tapi kau tetap tak berubah tertutup hati
Tak satu pengorbananku di hargai

November 12, 2008 ; 2233 hrs

Al-Asr

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful

By (the Token of) time (through the Ages), (1)
Verily Man is in loss, (2)
Except such as have Faith, and do righteous deeds, and (join together) in the mutual teaching of Truth, and of Patience and Constancy. (3)

Dengan nama Allah, Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Mengasihani

Demi Masa! (1)
Sesungguhnya manusia itu dalam kerugian; (2)
Kecuali orang-orang yang beriman dan beramal soleh dan mereka pula berpesan-pesan dengan kebenaran serta berpesan-pesan dengan sabar. / (3)

I keep thinking today (alot - which made me - migrain). And one of the thought is this surah - Al Asr. Yes... its true.. we are basically wasting our time of doing nothing...

For more detail on the research of this surah, please visit ,

http://www.nuradeen.com/contributions/SurahAlAsr.htm

Its interesting to read how the only 3 line surah can have bigger interpretation...

In Islam, the time is very important. Our daily life affect by the time. For instance, our prayer time. Subuh, Zuhur, Asar, Maghrib and Isyak.

I went to a course recently, and the speaker told us about dimension of the human body. Basically we as a normal human being have 3 dimension. In some cases, a special individual may have 4, which is time. And with this ability, he can travel to any place he want in a shorter time. hmm.. very intersting... and I wish I have those ability.

November 9, 2008 ; 1938hrs

I can't forget the day today. As one of my friend pass away today morning - around 9.15 am.

Today morning, I woke up a bit late. And we (me and my mum) are suppose to visit my friend, Nurul Hafizah at Hospital Tuanku Ampuan Rahimah (HTAR), Klang. So, around 8.50am, we went out from house to HTAR. According to my mum's friend, the ward can be visited anytime on sunday. based on this information, we pergi jugalah, even though I feel a bit cuak.. as, HTAR is not like any other hospital. Its quite strict. But, since my mum's friend dah cakap cam tu, we all pun pergi jugalah..

We reach HTAR around 9.10 - 9.15 am. Pergi dekat lift, ada org jaga, n ask us where to go. So, I told the guard, ward 7A. and then the guard told me to go and get the visitor's pass at the counter. We went to the counter, and the clerk told us that, for that ward - 7A, no pass will be given, and we must follow the visiting hours - which is 12.30 noon. Although we tried to pujuk her to let us go, but she tak bagi.. (sabar je la). so, my mum try to call my friend's mum (as she is my mum friend oso la), but couldnt get through. So, we went back home. and as I reach home, my brother told me that he received a phone call saying that "my friend had pass away today morning".. at the same time we reach hospital..

A bit sad, as i couldnt see her for the last time.. Last time I saw her at one of our friend wedding, 2 yrs ago...

So, waiting for her to reach surau for "solat jenazah", we made few preparation, as cutting the "daun pandan".. as the jenazah arrive, they open up her face, then only I saw her face.. but, not alive.. she's dead..

Her mother hug me.. cry over my shoulders.. And, i could not stop the tears from my eyes.. I try to be strong... but, its too sad.. seriously sad.. I remember last year in march, i felt the same thing when my father pass away...

About her sickness, she had both kidney failure... her bp reach 200 plus.. maybe becoz of high bp burst the kidney.. not sure.. n theres a rumours that she is taking diet pill, thats the reason her kidney fails to operate.... dont know which is true... but the thing is, its time for her to go.. Its fate.. Already fixed by Allah since before she had born into this world, the date today will be her last day...

The thing that make me sad, is she just got engaged, and she will be getting marry next year... I am grateful at least she is happy during the last moment of her life....

the most shocking thing I heard today is that, her closed friend didnt know she was admitted to the hospital... I know since her first day admitted, n I keep wanted to write abt this in our facebook - group of Primary school alumni... but, I dont know, something holding me from doing that...

Dari Allah kita datang, Kepada Allah juga kita pergi...

Innalillahi Wa inna Ilaihi rajiun... Alfatihah buat Nurul Hafizah Bt Ibrahim, semoga roh nya di cucuri rahmat Allah dan ditempatkan di tempat org org yang beriman...

Betrayal (November 6, 2008 ; 1753hrs)

According to "your dictionary", BETRAYAL is

-to break faith with; fail to meet the hopes of he betrayed my trust in him
- to help the enemy of (one's country, cause, etc.); be a traitor to
- to deliver or expose to an enemy traitorously
- to lead astray; deceive; specif., to seduce and then desert
- to reveal unknowingly or against one's wishes his face betrays his fear
- to reveal or show signs of; indicate the house betrays its age
- to disclose (secret information, confidential plans, etc.)

According to wiktionary, BETRAYAL are;

-To prove faithless or treacherous to, as to a trust or one who trusts; to be false to; to deceive; as, to betray a person or a cause.
- To deliver into the hands of an enemy by treachery or fraud, in violation of trust; to give up treacherously or faithlessly; as, an officer betrayed the city.
- To violate the confidence of, by disclosing a secret, or that which one is bound in honor not to make known.
- To disclose or discover, as something which prudence would conceal; to reveal unintentionally.
- To mislead; to expose to inconvenience not foreseen to lead into error or sin.
- To lead astray, as a maiden; to seduce (as under promise of marriage) and then abandon.
- To show or to indicate; -- said of what is not obvious at first, or would otherwise be concealed.

Based from this two sources, we can conclude that one of the betrayal act is to cheat a person who really put trust on him/her.

wah!!!

Miracle - Cascada

MIRACLE - CASCADA

Boy meets girl
You were my dream,my world
But i was blind
You cheated on me from behind
So on my ownI feel so all alone
Though I know it's true
I'm still in love with you

I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me

It can happen to me
Miracle...
Miracle [echo]

Day and night
I'm always by your side
Cause I know for sure
My love is real my feelings pure
So take a try
No need to ask me why
Cause I know it's true
I'm still in love with you

I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me

17 June 2008 - 1240hrs

Wah.. Its been 3 months since my last post... heheheh... where to start... hmm... let me summarize everything that happen in this 3 months.

Yippie... I got a new job at PNB.. (wah..). I went for the first interview on 15 March 2008, and second interview on 2 April 2008. I got the offer on 9 May 2008, but subject to my medical check up results. So, on 10 April 2008, went for medical check up at SMC, and finally, I was offered on 12 May 2008. So, quickly, I wrote my resignation letter and pass it to HR Director (Dr Latif), CC to my boss (AGM of Finance and Accounts Dept - Pn Sham) and Executive Vice Chairman (EVC - Mr Danny). My notice period is 2 months la wei... so long... So, in an hour, EVC - Mr Danny, called me into his room. So, he ask me why all of sudden drop a bomb to them.. heheheh.. now only u know ke?.. Takkan la i nak announce that i went for interview to all, am i rite.. of course its a bomb.. sorry.. I dont mean to do that, but, if u all know how Im suffer with my current job.. Its not that I hate my job. but, Its lots of pressure. Im the one who handling account, im the one who handling finance, and Im the one handling too much things in 1 time. How.. At least, they should increase my pay, as im doing 3 people job, or at least, find a new staff... yeah rite.. And, Mr Danny advice me to think carefully on my decision. He said, my new office is far, n I wont have any knowledge, as in big company, I will be specialised with one specific task. I said, its my final decision. So, later on, my boss - AGM - Pn Sham, called into her room. so, the same thing. And she told me that the reason she did not take a new staff to assist me, is to groom me - to make me learn lots of thing. I new, I have lots of knowldge here, but, too much for me.. I can handle the pressure.. but, if I been disturbed everyday to do new task, n even though i havent complete the task, i will be given new task.. so, what im suppose to do. stay at office the whole day n night? no need to go back? As i said, Im doing 3 people job.. And I am doing managerial level job.. but, they only pay me exec level.. what to do.. I given them a chance to increase my pay, but, the only thing they did was give me an allowance - hardship allowance.. but, it not counted as my basic pay.. mana boleh.. if later, they want to tarik balik, they can, rite.. what to do...

So, I told them, my decision is final. Its time for me to go, as I want to try new things. I dont want to give them bad impression, as this is my employer. I dont want to say anything bad about them, about the pressure and so on. Dengan cara baik kite masuk, n cara baik juga kite keluar..

Another things happen is my friend and I join a weight management programme.. Its a 45 days programs.. And today is my final phase - day 40... Ask me.. I lost 7 kg in 4 weeks... and the program is not hard. simple but good result.. no need to starving, no need to skip meals.. wah.. Dont play play... (those who interested call me la.. by the way, i already have few friend who wanted to join.. )

ok.. thats all for this time.. I need to siapkan my work.. before I leave this company... by the way, atas permintaan my boss, third quarter ended June will be done before 30.6.08 - so, i have to close account on 25 June.. wah... next week ma.. banyak kerja lagi... cheh!!

2 MAY 2008 - 1555 Hours

Ok... its been almost a month since my last blog.. hehehehe.. Damn bz.. with tax comp.. luckily this yr tax comp a bit ok compare to last yr.. Thanks to the tax agent which is very good n effiecient.

14 March 2008 - 1009 hrs

Its Friday... but for me its " fry day"... with fever ang bad flu, still going to office.. what to do.. banyak kerja ma.. last tuesday - Went to KLCC - petro science with my nieces n nephew - mira, zieza n faridz, and my sister.... It was fun for me - as I like to visit this kind of place.. as it give me more knowledge. But, what can I see from my nieces n nephew, only play!! I ask them to read and fahamkan all those information.. mana ada nak dengar.. as long ada buttons, they will press it n will not think what is it for..

Maybe they are still small.. But, when I was their age, I like to know many things about science. I want to explore in detail, but unfortunately, I have no chance during that time.. so sad. :( . So, as an alternative, I will watch TV pendidikan, and read from books. Thats how I develop my hobby - reading.

About reading, I have been reading novel since I was in standard 2 (8 years old). The first novel I read is " Tingkatan 1 di Seri Melur". My sister bought it, as she like those novels too.. So, I read all the series - from Tingkatan 1 di Seri Melur to Tingkatan 6 di Seri Melur.. Apart from that, I read Enid Blyton novels too. But today kids, like to watch TV rather than read books.

But, I think I have develop one of my niece interest in reading books. As she always saw me reading. And sometimes, I laugh, and sometimes, tears came out from my eyes. So, she wonder, how can I react in such way by reading??? So, she now starting to read my novels. But the funny part is, she took my 700 page novel, and start to read it. Just imagine - she is only 7!!!

Today, my colleagues and I will go to steamboat restaurant.. Gemuk lagi la i..... heheheheh... kayla.. nak sambung kerja...

10 March 2008 - 2307 hrs

Ola... hehehhe.. nak gelak jap.. Today, I feel so seronok.. Im on leave tomorow... hehehe.. Goin to KLCC.. with my nieces and nephew.. So, as nak memujuk my another nephew yg tak dapat pergi, I bought book, ball, and baloon for Adam. So, the arrangement for Adam, is, on Saturday, I will bring Adam to my office, and later bring him to McDonald. heheheh.. Suka bankrupt kan his Khalaji...

Now, Im sitting in front of the computer, with my niece - Mira, where she is now playing with my hair.. As if she is in the salon, and doing my hair... Kononnya la... Now she applying some cream to my hair.. gasak la..

So, ok la.. want to play some online games..

10 March 2008 - 1153 Hours

Monday blues... ahaks.... Today lambar keluar rumah.. even though dah buat aksi tokyo drift, but still late - 2 mins.. hehehe...

So, today, lepas punch card, I keluar balik ke seven eleven - just to buy newspaper.. Berita Harian and Utusan Malaysia - finish.. Pkl 9.04am habis... So, I bought News Straits Times.. Apa lagi.. To know the full result of the 12th Election..

So, after that, sampai meja I.. waaaaa..... banyak nye document kena siapkan... Mana dgn AGM Q & A, mana ngan salary journal, mana ngan February closing, mana ngan finance, mana ngan tax comp.. waaaa... migraine i... So, today, I just take a deep breath, and will not rushing to complete all those things.. I need to take care of my health too...

By the way, I applied for leave tomorow.. luckily approved.. As, tomorow, me, my sis - Aniz, my nephew - Faridz, n nieces - Zieza n Mira will go to Petroscience.. heheheh... Unfortunately, I have to tinggalkan Adam at home. So, I make an arrangement, whether today, or this Saturday, I will bring him - only him to Mc Donalds and jalan jalan. He agreed. And Mira also agreed.. so, semua boleh senyum... Tak best la bawa sorang, and sorang lagi merajuk...

24 February 2008 ; 2202 hrs

Lately, i feel so sad. sumtimes my eyes full with tears.. very easily feel sad. Even though listening to some song, I nearly cry..

Today, I read my 2007 diary. I cried. Because it remind me of my late father. I wrote everything from 1st January 2007 up to 26 March 2007... I remember everything from the first day in Hospital until he passed away..

Al Fatihah For Abaji...

Dastaan e Lyrics (Om Shanti Om)

Song : Dastaan e
Film : Filem Om Shanti Om
Actor/actress: Shah Rukh Khan , Deepika





Sune walo, suno aaisa bhi hota hai
Dil deta hai jo, woh jaan bhi kotha hai
Pyaar aisa jo karta hai,kya mar ke bhi marta hai
Aao tum bhi aaj sunlo


Dastaan hai ye ke
ek tha naojawaan jo dil hi dil mein
ek haseena ka tha deewana
Woh haseena thi ke jiski khoobsoorthi
Tha duniya bar mein tha mashoor afsaana
Dono ki yeh kahani hai jisko sabhi
Kehte hai, Om shanti Om


Naojawan ki thi aarzo, uski thi yeh hi justujoo
Us haseena mein usko mile ishq ke saare rang kabool –2
Usne na jana yeh naadani hai
Woh reth ko samja ke pani hai
Kuyn aisa tha, kisliye tha,
Yeh kahani hai


Dastaan hai ye ke
Us dilkash haseena ke nigaho dil mein
koi dusra hi tha
Bey khabar iss baath se
Us naojawan ke kwabo ka anjam tho hona bura hi tha
Toote kwabon ki us dastaan ko sabhi
Kehte hai Om Shanti Om



Sune walo, suno aaisa bhi hota hai
Koi jitna hase utna hi roota hai
Deewani hoke haseena, khaye kya dhoke haseena
Aao tum bhi aaj sunlo

Dastaan hai ye ke
us masoom haseena ne jise chaaha woh
tha aandar se harjaye
Sang dil se dil lagake bewafa ke haat aake
Usne ek din mauth hi paaye
Ek sitam ka phasana hi jisko sabhi
Kehte hai Om shanti Om


Kuyn koi katil samjtha nahi,
Ke jurm koi chuptha nahi
Yeh daag woh hai jo mitha nahin
Rehta hai kooni ke haat par
Koon us haseena ka jab tha huwa

koi wahan tha pohunch to gaya
Lekin use woh bacha na saka
Roya tha pyaar uski maath par



Dastaan hai ye ke
jo pehchaan tha hai kooni ko
woh naojawan hai laut ke aaya
keh rahi hai zindagi ka dil samaj le
uske sar pe cha chuka hai maut ka saaya
janmo ki karmo ki hai kahani jise
Kehte hai Om shanti Om
kehte hai om shanti om
kehte hai om shanti om




(Al Kisah pengkhianatan cinta... )

TO Watch the video clip, go to:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ev1RTC_WN20

3 Feb 2008 - 1243 hrs

Sunday... Its was the best day in my life.. I love sunday... as I can lepak at home for the whole day... except, if my mum ask to go to wedding or my relative house.. I dont mind going... hehehhe...

Today morning, went to market.. biasala... and n0w, im waiting for my mum, as she wanted to bring me to her friend wedding.. so, masa tgh waiting nie la, online jap.. apa lagi.. download songs n movies la.. n surf friendster, my office mail, and this blog.. takde kerije..

yesterdayy, went to KL.. but, dont know y i really feel it - I hate KL.. too many people.. so crowd.. n soooo packed!!! I feel like I cant breath... so, its just my friend really wanted to go there... so, just ikut je la...

29 January 2008 - 1417 hrs

Phew... Penat hari nie.. penat pikir... hari nie board meeting.. Nak present draft audited account yang considered final. But, morning, auditor called me and saying that my cashflow salah.. Wei.. we all dah print the draft last night, n now he saying that one item in the cash flow is wrong.. mati la cam nie... the draft dah masuk file company sec dah.. lapan copy lak tu.. mmg la one line item.. but it does effect few line.. tension.. my boss lagi tension.. before this, takkan dia tak perasan benda tu salah.. then what for he became auditor... idiot..

So, I ammend my working, and email to him... so, now waiting for the new draft.. The board meeting is on 3pm sharp.. apa nie.. lagi abt 40 minutes.. I dont want to think anything now...

27 January 2007 - 2312 hrs

Hari nie, I gi shopping beli barang dapur with my mum kat giant.. mana lagi... dah tu, gi makan tosei lak.. hehehhe.. saje, my mum nak belanja makan... but, the weather today really hot.. Balik rumah, migraine.. langsung.. tension btul.. so, as today cuti, i pun kemas la apa yg patut.. biasala, before my fauja (army) team nak dtg umah, better kemas dulu.. hehehe.. as, when fauja dah dtg tak leh nak buat apa... fauja is my niece and nephews - mira, adam n amir.. weekdays they will stay at my mum's, and weekend balik rumah mereka. sekolah pun dekat depan umah i.. so, bakper nak berulang balik kan.. once a week la mereka balik.

Tadi, main dam ular dgn adam n mira.. cheh!! i kalah.. always kena makan that ular.. hehehhe... so, when adam told his father that i loss, i buat buat merajuk.. n said "khalaji taknak main lagi la".. N adam immediately change his statement, "khalaji menang".. see.. kids.. pandai nak pujuk org.. I gelak je la.. Adam is quite smart.. either in day to day life and at school.. He dont want to bother others.. He has so much of self confident. Mira is different.. She is smart too.. But, today, i got shocked in m life, as when i asked her what she want to be when she grown up, whe told me, "artist - singer".. ye la tu.. takde dalam sejarah keturunan we all jadi penyanyi.. I bukan sceptical abt all this dunia hiburan nie..but, seriously, ada penyayi pakai seksi seksi. Berjoget atas pentas la.. Bagus sangat la tu. Tayang bod kat public. Ada penyanyi dah kaya, but still nak kawin ngan org kaya sampai bertindak tidak adil dgn beberapa pihak.. apa nie.. dunia macam nie kat yg patut di ceburi?? no way... So, i talked to her slowly, "mira, suara tu aurat. Mira nak tanggung dosa ke everytime mira menyanyi.? Duit mira yg dapat dgn hasil menyanyi tu halal ke??". She a bit confuse.. n terkejut. So I explained to her, as a muslim, we shall never do things that against muslim rules. In islam, music can be haram if it mengkhayalkan.. I know, it is impossible to practice this rules nowdays.. but, if akidah kita kuat, kita boleh.. kan.. bukannya susah...

okla.. nak tidur... nearly 0000 hours already.. hehehhe.. Good nite...

25 January 2008 - Sad Memory

I hate year 2007. As that year I lost my beloved my father - due to brain tumor - stage 4. What happen on this date last year, was, I with my father - shopping, who had been discharge from Hospital - after brain surgery - to remove part of the tumor from his brain on 19 January 2007. We actually went out to Alam Central. As he need to buy new handphone. So, I accompanied him to buy new handphone. He bought Nokia 6280. After that, he wanter to buy mini TV and electric shaver. So, we went to the store to get those item.

I was remembered, he walked really slow. He never walk that slow before. I know, it definitely cause by the tumor - which effect his nerve. And, he was wearing an orrange T-Shirt and "kupiah", which is to cover his head, although we can still see the stitches. But, I dont care about other people who kept staring at us. I do not feel shame that time. I was proud walking with my father. As he is strong enough to go out in the public looking like that..

I still remember that moment.. He was so cute that time. I still cannot believe that he passed away last year.. Maybe I dont want to believe it...

25 January 2007 - until 2 pm

What on earth happening today!! heheheh.. (substitute with word *hell*.. not nice ma..)..I did submit my latest consol working and notes,together with the cash flow last tuesday.. but, today, the auditor called me and ask why my consol working not tie with cash flow.. where got.. cheh!!! apa nie.. luckily my boss answering his call.. if not, i dah jerit dah...A

nd today, ada je issue kat office nie. normally, when friday comes, two of female staff di kehendaki jaga pagar.. as our security guard go for Friday prayer. Bukanla berdiri kat pintu pagar tu.. But, dalam post guard, which is complete with air- cond and TV.. heheheh.. by the way, today is not my duty yet. But, its happen that, one of the female staff who should be jaga pagar today, went to our branch office in Penang. and her partner start to bising bising la, said that i can only jaga for 1 hour.. another hour someone has to replace that lady yg pergi penang. so, jadi la satu kekecohan di office nie hari nie. sampai ED called my boss asking who can replace that girl.. I just shocked.. ED can ask anyone to do it rite.. but, why he ask my boss - mana my boss n i tgh siapkan audited account?? she also have to think abt benda nie ke..For me, very simple. That girl yg pergi Penang tu, y not she arrange someone to replace her masa dia pergi Penang? senang nye nak lepas tgn.. I nie, tak pernah cari pasal lagi ngan bebudak kat sini. But, plz dont ask me to start.. mulut I lagi laser.. but, I prefer to sabar.. sabar la dulku. c how can i hold this kesabaran...

so, my boss minta i replace her.. mmg la i taknak memula.. sebab its not my time yet.. But, malas nak cakap banyak banyak.. but, if people start to penting kan diri, I pun nak kena penting kan diri la.. So, when my turn datang, I wont jaga la.. Either she or other have to replace me. As, i dah jaga today.. Ntah hapa hapa ntah....But, to tell the truth, no body like this kind of attitude. And the staff yg ke penang tu, no body in the office like her.. everyone hates her.. Im not saying that I hate her.. but, u know la.. mulut dok nak melaser je.. I pun boleh laser gak.. but I nie taknak la melukakan perasaan org.. WHat for.. rite...So, tu la citer sampai tgh hari tadi.. la nie, nak sambung check draft audited account lak..

23 January 2008

Phew.. That’s the first thing I said when I woke up this morning... Its cuti time... hehehhe.. Even though its only for 1 day, but for me, its better than nothing.. I am too tired, too de-motivated, too pressure, and too bored with my current task. I do like my job... but, sometimes, I hate to focus on one task, where people like to change the instruction.. Please.. Be firm.. Don’t expect me to change anything every time.. I dah start gaduh ngan external auditor. Tak sangka, Pangkat manager, international audit firm lak tu, but bodo… really menyakitkan hati.. kena sebijik ngan I.. hehehe.. don’t play play…

Hari nie, I just want to lepak at home only.. So, apa lagi. My niece and nephew, pagi pagi dah kena buka buku. Hehehhe.. Yang Mira – standard 1 – I bagi latihan BM and maths. Science malam tadi dia dah buat. Takpe la.. Baru lagi kan.. slow slow la.. Si adam – Pre school, bagi dia BM – buat ejaan. Then, I ask him to start drawing. As this is to teach him to lembut /lenturkan tangan. So, he asked me to draw for him fish, squid, crab, clams, house, sea, and boat. I did. So, after that, dia ikut la.. Alhamdulillah, boleh juga la dia ikut, After that, Bagi makan tengah hari, and now, 2 of them are in my room – main plastesin (tanah liat) Itu janji I to them, so that they will follow my instruction to study. Plastesin at first berwarna warni, now dah jadi warna kelabu.. Buat pizza la, buat baby dalam buaian, buat lesung batu, n buat buku. Now, both of them tgh lelong buku plastesin. So cute..

The funny part is, while playing, they can ask me, “Khalaji taknak bawa kiteorg jalan jalan ke?”. They are smart.. so smart.. La nie, tgh piker la nak bawa mereka gi mana… any idea???

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